One year later!

Around this time last year, I along with my parents were preparing to attend a ministers and family conference in Louisiana. The trip also took us south to Beaumont, Texas to attend a special pastoral anniversary for some dear friends. The very next day on January 24, 2012 after our arrival home from the very long trip to the lovely part of Texas called the Panhandle. After having an awesome time with friends, hearing powerful preaching and feeling renewed in the Holy Ghost. Little did we know that mine and my mother's life would almost be taken or severely injured!

I remember this morning quite well, I had just gotten up to go pick up my dog from the kennel feeling somewhat a little nervous and uneasy, but I did not understand why I was feeling this way. So I told my mother about the feeling I was having and she said it could possibly be from the very long trip. While at the kennel I ran into a sweet friend whom I had been inviting to church many, many years ago and what a surprise it was to see her and meet her husband! I ran home to make an appointment to take my dog to the groomers since she was not in very good shape after being in the kennel the entire week (inserting horrible doggy stench smell here). At this time I was feeling so very uneasy to go back out again, I did not feel like going out and asked my mother if we could possibly just stay home and cancel the appointment but since the dog desperately needed her bath. I decided I would take her after all no matter how bad I felt. I grabbed my dog and for some crazy reason I put her in the back seat (which was laying down flat) and that is very unusual, she usually sits on my mothers lap in the front seat and knowing my dog she won't sit still if she's in the back of the car. She's always wanting to see the exciting views from the front seat with my mom.  But somehow, someway just only God knows why but that dog stayed put in the back watching us and looking out in between the front seats!

The side of my car where I was hit. 

Driving out to a major intersection just a few blocks from my home, still with this very uneasy feeling that I could not shake off! I was first in line stopped at the red light and when the light turned green normally I would start to push the gas but waited a second and right then and there a car driving very fast from the opposite direction ran a red light! I got a little  shaken up, thinking and thanking God for protecting us from a red lighter. Feeling a little breathless I  drove very slowly to the next light a few feet away, making sure that light was going to stay on green and no one els would run this red light and all the same giving God thanks for protecting us from what could have been a horrible car accident with either me or someone els!
While I was slowly crossing the green light and my mom screamed "she's going to hit us!" A car was coming straight at us from the drivers side and at that very moment I could not think to even avoid her as she had just jumped the "red light" and hit me on my side (drivers side) I remember this time in very slow motion and next thing I remember is screaming "OH Jesus, Jesus!" We were hit and pushed up on the corner of a block on a parking lot. Sitting in total shock for what seemed like an eternity, no one came to see if were ok or hurt but at that moment I remember my mom asking "Danita are you hurt? Are you ok? Danita we just got hit!" I couldn't remember who I was or my name I was in shock and all I could think of was it my "fault? Was it my fault? who hit me? is my mommy ok?" I cried till I couldn't get tears out. My mom got out of the car looking for her glasses and she could not find them until realizing they had flown to the backseat upon impact.  Finally, a lady who said she was a "witness" came over and yelled "it was your fault it was your fault!" She did not ask if were ok or hurt but a man came over and asked if we were ok. But no one knew or saw what happened. There had been no official witnesses. The lady returned again and my mother asked if everyone was ok in the other car apparently they were just fine too. 
The paramedics, police and fire dept. come over and asked our names, ages and if we knew our drivers license numbers? I still couldn't even remember my own name much less my ID number! I was so panicked and in major shock. Being in shock has got to be one of the worst feelings to ever go through. A paramedic asked if we were ok and checked my puppy poor thing she was shaking like a leaf but thankfully she was ok too just!

At that moment my moms phone rings and its my grandma calling she did not know we had just been in a car wreck but I know God placed that burden for her to call us. So very blessed and thankful for praying grandparents!

Point of impact from incoming car, just missing me by inches!

I could not stop my shock and crying, the police handed me the report it  and a ticket for running a red light according to the "witness." We waited till my friend came and picked us up we were the last ones to leave the scene, when a man came over with two kids and he said "are you guys ok?" and then he proceeded to say "these kids where the kids you hit" he said it in a nice way but it scared me more because I could not stop crying and trying to go over everything that had just happened. My thoughts there were "OH God what if I could have killed those innocent kids?" oh Lord what would I've done and I kept going on over my head. Finally, my friend came to take us home and my mother called our doctors to go see if we can get checked out. My mother was starting to hurt bad and I was scared still because I couldn't believe what had just happened!

Drivers seat where I was sitting 

We went to the doctors office to makes sure we ok just to be sure nothing was broken or that we were seriously hurt. We started to feel sore and achy and I STILL could not get over every thing, my shock was getting worst and my mother had to tell me to calm down, we were ALIVE and that was good enough God kept His hand on us! My mom had some blood knots where the seat belt ran across her body and that bruised her up and she got the majority of the impact from the waves of the crash.  I had a jacket on that protected me from getting seriously bruised or injured. If it had not been for that, I don't know and honestly I do not care to think about it, even still a year later.

I can't stop THANKING GOD and praise Him for keeping us safe and as well for not letting the other car get seriously hurt especially the driver and two small children. My God is so powerful and awesome! He's a merciful God who cares for every detail and every little thing. It took me several days to go look at my car mainly because I was still in somewhat of a shock and I was scared to see it but I had to go and give God thanks for what He did for me and my mom. I needed to have a peace in my heart after all the shock wore off and I had to let the angriness go.  I was rather sad about loosing my first car. But what its it worth my life or a peace of metal? When the insurance told us it was a total loss I cried. I had it already 3 years and to loose it but I knew God had other plans. I along with my parents prayed that something would come up. I did not want to shop for another car, it's not one of my favorite things to do but after a few months I knew I needed another vehicle to help me get around in. I begin to pray again and ask God for what I desired and to help me get rid of the fear of driving once again. After the wreck it hurt to even get in a car, so it took me a few days to get back in even as a passenger. I almost decided not to ever want to drive again!!! 

I started to shop at different dealers and I told the Lord I would like a brand new car but there would not be a possibility I would ever get one. Once the insurance came back I was in awe because it was more then what I or my parents expected!!! Six months after the accident, God gave me a major blessing He answered my prayers and added a few little unexpected extras too I knew this was from Him. I found a car I fell in love with and told my parents this is "it" this is the car God is going to give me! God gave a me a brand new Honda Civic 2012! 

My brand new BLESSING! 

The day we got the keys and signed the final papers, I sat behind the wheel for almost the first time since the wreck. I drove my first brand new car with only 17 miles off the lot home and drove with God as my front seat passenger. I felt scared but I knew God was with me and I got to follow my mom home and once I was there I wanted to go out again, that was a major step up to my healing from the accident! 

You see when the enemy tries to attack there's always victory at the end of the tunnel because God takes something bad and turns it into something good and better!
I thank God for what He did for me on that day back a year ago! God showed me that when we are FAITHFUL to Him He's faithful to us! He'll never leave us nor forsake us, He'll be with us wherever we go even in the good and bad times!